“Detoxing. My body aches everywhere like if you work out one day excessively, then the next day you’re sore. I was tired, but couldn’t sleep and when I tried, I was tossing and turning and my legs kept aching and were restless with bad muscle spasms. Standing up was the only way the legs didn’t feel like that, but standing made me ache all over.

My mind kept racing with thoughts and memories of things that were really depressing me and I started having episodes of being maniacally happy and smiling and sitting alone and laughing out loud at my thoughts, and kept thinking of murder and ways to take control of the jail and start a riot and basically incite a cult like following.”